I was 39 years old and could not believe I had to be taught how to be honest with myself.
It blew my mind when I uncovered the subtle schemes and strategies (lies) that were quite effectively holding me hostage in a third rate life.
I spent 30 years chasing a 1st class life and there were moments when it was really good, when the world would bend my way, but nothing that endured or that I was able to maintain.
From age 9 until 39 I was under the impression that everything that happened to me was luck “good or bad” or chance or circumstance and I’m certain I said to myself a thousand times… I might be cursed.
There were more than a few times… when I said “%#$@ why does that keep happening to me, but I never made the connection between my thoughts, beliefs and behavior or choices and the things that were actually happening.
In cases like those it was easy to see the cause and effect because the feedback (effect) was instant….hitting my finger created instant pain so I knew to avoid hitting my finger.
Click to Tweet When I examined my thoughts and beliefs I discovered a septic mind sabotaging my life
The problem was that most of my choices and behavior didn’t create instant (effects) or feedback…. they were delayed or deferred until some later date when my memory was faint. So, instead of seeing my responsibility in creating the effect I was experiencing, it became easy for me to externalize and blame my dog or wife or my car or my curse.
My delusion was sophisticated and complex and prevented me from seeing the truth.
What’s the condition of your mind?
Are you being held captive by lies and false beliefs?